=D

i just wonder whats my life's aim. for now, its to study and not waste time on unnecessary stuffs like sports used to took away so much of my time and yet i have not gain much interest in it. i think cos my motive to play ball is to loss weight. HAIS... so sad to hear that the did not include me in the team. HAIS.. im too insignificant liao. hais, im always so emotional.cant help it.
thinkthinkthink also can link to seriously, what's my talent/ what's my interest? as if i got nth liao... thinkthinkthink until i can link to where's my true friends? do i even have them?hahahas. think im suffering from depression.im crazy!!=x ignore me.
sadded max.

hais, so sadded that uni life starting. its aug, suppose to be the best month ever. but come to think of it... im sadded.
uni starts, bee going serve the nation. double attack.
hopes i can cope with life.
pray that our love will deepen.
pray that i will make great friends in uni.
pray that i will be able to not miss bee that much.
hais, sounds like end of world, but im optimistic! everything will be fine! yiing~ stay focus on studies!=)
will msg bee everyday, whenever im bored. hehes.
HAPPY 4th MONTH!=D <3 you lots!
God have greater plans for us!=)

Why things have to turn out this way..I always remind myself this phrase," everything happens for a reason." God obviously wants you to learn something from it. For you have the choice: yes/ no;to do or not to do, it is your choice and will. No one can control it, hello I'm in singapore, not gonna talk about other countries where there is No freedom.

Saying things out may lead to consequences, worse still.through mass media, just giving in to privacy.
For I got no where to vent my worries, angry, whatever I feel, blog is the best place among all. Not all things can be said Anywhere, just like twitter.That's so sian cos you know theres ppl out there looking at what you post. Arghhhhh.
Politics at work, why.... Maybe cos I'm not a full timer there that's why I don't really understand why. Still living in my naive world. Forget it gonna sleep now.

it has been so long since i blogged, so i shall update my life before i forget about it.

I'm going Uni coming August~ now, im working 2 jobs. can you believe it? i cant. currently full time admin job-mon to friday, 9am to 6pm. don't really like the way the boss does things. but have to bare with it.=/Boss actually asked me to work till mid july cos they need help to pack the documents into the new office. but i have yet to tell boss i gonna only work till end of the month cos, i think i want to spend more time with Bruce dear dear before my Uni and his army life begins.

The reason why im still working at shaw is because i think i have build a close relationship with the staffs there! every time they will msg me, treat me well when im at work. joke with me, and i seriously enjoyed spending my time with them.=) i only help out when they lack of staff and im free.

-Need to go back nyjc to collect cert! =/ where got time.. :( luckily collection is till july.XD

-Need to update my PDL,hopes i can find the time.

-Need to book practical lessons, pray that i can get slots for july.

-FTT on 8 Aug,8pm. nice timing!=)

NTU MSE,here i come! gonna stay @hostel if i can get someone to stay with me.=/

dislike my throat, think i need to cultivate the habit of spamming water.=x

YAY, im going korea soon!=D miss you.

trust over jealousy. love above all.:)

hais, i'm feeling so down this few days. every time i just few like crying out loud. but its just feels weird. i think i'm just trying to act strong in front of everyone. don't want to be the center of attraction. everything is coming in so not smoothly. so sian-ed with life.

What should i do..... on the one hand, im the Child of God. i just have to urge to scream all the vulgarities out as i wished. If im not the child of God, i probably be out there hurting all your feelings for you always say things so directly that i just can't help it. i felt irritated. gosh..

Thank God for teaching me to be like him. Psalm 103:8, The Lord is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in love. i need to control my temper.

just to vent my anger: why do you have to find fault in other ppl to cover yours? cant you just be a little more understanding, a little more initiative? forget it you dont understand.

You always say it but you dont do it. maybe im accusing you. but just let me be. i just need to get out of this place and stop thinking about it. you may say that im avoiding the fact but its good that i go relax before i got so stressed up with everything i'm with now and get into depression, and do something stupid.

what should I eat later? hahas, working 6days this week. but then my working hours was like 6 hours or more. most of time 6hours. times fly when there're Customers! most of all,get to meet a bunch of fun-to-be-with colleagues. and i'm always there laughing/smiling away. at times, it will be superb boring. I just need something to do, if not i will be there starring into space. chefs always cook snacks for the staff there. food like prata, cake, fried rice, pizza. If not we will buy packet food. Today i get to tried the famous chicken rice that my colleagues loved so much that i heard that they ate almost everyday in a week. HAHAS! big portion, thats all i can say and its worth it!

working tmr also. but before that i'm going for tchouckball! arhhh. so long never exercise. Yimei msg-ed me the other time and i agreed to go.9am in the morning.=X can't believe i'm going. nevermind, i have to turn my body clock around.LOL, sunday there's BS @9am. must make sure i can wake up for it.

Sunday after service need to go fareast plaza to help my cousin with his shop! Come visit me! It's called My Dairy. i think it's at level 4 or 5?hahas.

see, i just love my life for now. and i don't want go back to the life where i have to wake up so early in the morning to get ready for school!HAHAS, the most sian think is that.... Results will be out soon.=( tell me about it. I seriously don't look forward to it.but we all have no choice. Gonna plan ahead. Be prepared for the worst. if you ever read this post and have any suggestions, do tell me! most likely gonna pick up science courses, mybe engineering. for sure, i wont take economics though i would love to understand the theories. but then essay is not my type.